Diem Brown on Her Hysterectomy: I Felt 'Gutted'

<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"> <a href="http://img2.timeinc.net/people/i/2014/news/140908/140908/diem-brown-1-435.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://img2.timeinc.net/people/i/2014/news/140908/140908/diem-brown-1-435.jpg" /></a></div> <span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">Even after she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer </span>for the second time<span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">, Diem Brown never let go of her desire to experience</span>pregnancy and childbirth.<br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">But despite going to extraordinary lengths to freeze her eggs two years ago, that dream slipped away on Aug. 17, when the MTV reality star, 32, underwent an emergency hysterectomy after learning </span>her cancer had returned <span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">for the third time. </span><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">"When I came to, they told me that they couldn't save my uterus," she tells PEOPLE in this week's issue. "That was a blow. We'd fought so hard to keep it. Might sound silly to most, but it's what made me still feel like a woman and gave me hope for a future. I felt empty ... gutted." </span><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">In addition to a tumor blocking her colon, doctors found cancer in her stomach lining, and Brown now has a colostomy bag. A second surgery followed three days later due to complications from the first. </span><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">"I was completely defeated, honestly," says the recurring </span><em style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">Real World/Road Rules Challenge</em><span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;"> contestant, who candidly chronicled her 2012 cancer journey in a </span>blog for PEOPLE.com<span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">. </span><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="background: 0px 50% rgb(255, 255, 255); border: 0px; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: brandon-grotesque, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0.10000000149011612px; line-height: 30px;">But when her medical team explained how "touch and go" her second surgery had been, "it put things into perspective," she says. "I might not have the ability to ever carry a child and I have this damn bag for the time being – but I'm alive." </span>

Diem Brown on Her Hysterectomy: I Felt 'Gutted'

Even after she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer  for the second time , Diem Brown never let go of her desire to experience pregnancy and ...

Baca selengkapnya »